Wed
Jan
28
I thought true friendship was built on trust. An bond between two people that no one could break. I thought I knew you but really I did not. You deceived me and brought me into “the little shop of horrors” you call your life. Never in my life had I ever encountered so much drama. How do you function? How can you call that living? You lie and manipulate to get things your way. Using three little words that mean so much. Do you not understand the power of those words? Maybe you are used to living life that way? Using and abusing people and throwing them away.
One day your mind will evolve and you will see that you are not truly living.
With all of that said I bid you adieu…I think I have wasted to many words on you..
Thu
Jan
22
#1
Between you and her
noone will ever know
The bond that was created almost 11 years ago
All the ups and downs
struggles and stife
you are her husband and she is your wife
All BS and shit talkling
set that aside
you will always know
why you chose her to be your bride
So let go of the pain and open your eyes
That true love never really dies
#2
When do you think that you will ever change
My needs you neglect
My wants you ignore
I really do not think we can do this anymore
You say you are in love
You say that you need me
Why is it that I can never feel it
I’ve supported your dreams
and nurtured your goals
Never once did I ever get that in return
I did not tell you or even imply
that slowly each day I was dying inside
Tue
Nov
18
I never thought in a million years that I would ever have to endure a yearning so deep. I can’t get over the fact that this feeling has penetrated down past my soul. My entire being is actually yearning for _____. My heart is breaking with each day that passes. This craving possesses my every thought. I need to put a stop this.
Well it has been a couple of weeks since I have posted anything. I have been so busy over the past couple of weeks but, I have lots of notes of random thoughts…
I wish November 4th will just get here already. I am so over the negative ads and bullshit coverups that are going on. Please people let’s just focus on the issues and fix this economic mess. There are too many families struggling to keep roofs over their heads and food in their kid’s mouths. Hell, I am one of them. Everytime I receive my paycheck I swear it is smaller than the last one and I worked overtime.
Everyday my children teach me something new. It seems that once a child gets mad they yell,scream and vent and then it is over. Why is this so hard for adults? I mean sometimes we will hold a grudge for 5 years and by the sixth year we don’t even know why we started holding the grudge. (Truthfully, by the next week you have already forgotten why you were angry at the person) I think we should just do as kids do and laugh and get over it.
Family is the most important thing to have. I am not talking about (mom and ‘nem lol) I am talking about the one within a marriage. The person you choose to marry and spend the rest of your life with is more that just your family. That person is your number one. Without a seamless connection with that person, your marriage is doomed for failure. Sometimes it takes many years of trial and error within a marriage so that things will work. Sometimes you have to fall in and out then in love again to realize you love someone more that words can express. You will sometimes fuck up so bad that you think that everything is lost and there is no redemption for mistakes and that one person will forgive you for your stupidity and lack of judgement and hold you and leet you know that everything will be okay and that they will always love you.
Random thoughts or Insightful Realizations….
Sat
Oct
4
Well it has been a minute since I have posted to my blog. I have turned over a new leaf and started over.
I had to face some truths about myself that involved my loved ones. I really did hurt someone who means the world to me. I pray everyday for our bond to grow and mature.
I really want to tell my friends that I am sorry for neglecting them lately but there have been somethings that I have had to handle before my life implodes on me.
Much love, miracles and blessings.
Me :)
Sat
Aug
16
I know everyone has a myspace; facebook or some kind of page that makes them feel important to the rest of the world. Well of course I have one of each. Well the strangest thing happened.. Someone I have been looking for a number of years (7 to be exact) found me on facebook. Needless to say, I am so excited to catch up with him and find out what has been going on in his life. He was a true friend and someone I always counted on in high school. The internet is an amazing thing. I look forward to catching up and getting to know him again.
:)
Mon
Aug
11
Well this is my first day posting.. I am feeling good about it. So much has happened.
I want to dedicate this first post to Erica S.- With love God gives us precious moments with our loved ones and with their passing God gives us a lifetime of memories to reflect on and smile. RIP Mr. Strassler.
I love you Erica aka Julia Red :)
